Lashon Bush
Stephanie Fefa Rivera
This is part of my testimony I didn’t have a normal childhood growing up, I at some point dealt with homosexuality exposed to sex and sexually assaulted abused by a woman at a very young age made me do things if not I would get hit or burned by a blow dryer,physically abused. Throughout that time I stayed with a baby sitter,for a long time I felt alone having no idea why I had not stayed with my own family feeling like an orphan at the time ,so I ended up staying with a stranger for most of my young life,being part of my testimony,after I moved I began to deal with the effects of my childhood which led me to being addicted to pornography and basically prostituting myself on the internet for men eventually meeting some in person, it got to the point where cops had to get involved because one of them ended up being a pedi file,my parents believed that it was best to put me in a mental hospital,I resented them on that for years until the Lord gave me my heart back to forgive them,, dealing with my own demons,dealing with anger ,stealing,lying,having that lustful Spirit to the point to where that lustful demon I had wanted me to be raped.Smoking weed,drank alcohol and Getting drugged at a modeling photo shoot,putting myself in situations where I was too naive at that time,being betrayed by worldly friends,being out in danger at times,It was some dark times for me, I had depression,I didn’t eat I weighed 90 pounds at one point. I just felt alone at times,wanting to die,i couldn’t even look people in the eye,I had such bad social anxiety,I would try to hurt myself, in many ways,
This picture was actually taken before I got drugged,this was the time where I smoked a lot of weed and drank, popped a pill from someone I thought was my friend and she ended up leaving me with the photographer,all I could remember I was passed out on the sand,watching her leave,dazed out again,finding myself dazed out again,finding myself in the car as he was driving, dazing out again finding myself in a house seeing a woman,and from there I didn’t remember anything, I just thank God everyday nothing else bad happened because from that day, it changed my life.
To think of how I was then to how I am now God delivering me from all of that,I praise Jesus everyday because who knows where I would be if it wasn’t for him!!! Jesus saved my life literally many times where I Thank him everyday for letting me have a life to live. He changed me into a new creation ,gave me a pure heart and pure mind,brought me my happiness back,brought me my joy back,and brought me my life back being stronger than ever!!! I pray this helps many come out of their ways,I pray God can help you like he’s helped me I praise Jesus everyday!! He was there to protect me he was there to save me! I love Jesus I love him so much. My father,My God my everything Thank you Jesus!! I’m stronger than ever ❤️🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️🔥🔥
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