I was living with my boyfriend. He had a good friend, Patrick that would bring the Bible over and they would talk about the Bible while I was in the bedroom. One day I told Pat, you can come visit but you can’t bring that Bible back in here. He looked me right in my eyes and said “Kim you’re gonna be saved and you’re gonna be the biggest mouth for Jesus” I frowned and kept cooking. A few months later Pat was in the hospital. I went to visit him and he coughed, sat up, grabbed the Bible and started reading something to me.. I can’t remember what. For some reason I knew he was gonna die even though they said he would be fine and going home soon, so I let him read. I wiped a tear gave him a hug. Went to the pay phone and called my boyfriend to urge him to come visit him. The next day, got a call from his girlfriend to tell us that Patrick has died. At the funeral I had my daughter on my lap and it was PACKED.
See Patrick had just gotten “Kanye saved” (radical) a few months before he died. He threw all his rap CDS out and only listened to gospel and read the Bible. He got some of the guys on the corner saved and attended every funeral he could to talk about Jesus. Above his casket I saw some transparent white things flying.. kinda like wings alone. I nudged my boyfriend to see if he saw it too, He said no. Two nights later.. he went to work overnight, I went to sleep. While I was sleep I was at the crucifixion. I couldn’t tell if I was dreaming or woke seeing a vision. I was in a doorway on a tight staircase and Jesus walked past me dragging the cross, it was loud.. some were crying, some laughing and some angry and yelling at Him. I felt my shoulder shaking hard and I came too sitting in the corner of my bedroom on the floor, covered in sweat. My boyfriend was asking me frantically what happened?! It took a minute or so to register who I was or where I was. I got up and said I saw Jesus!
My boyfriend was just staring at me. I was a nervous wreck. I thought I was about to die. I thought the world was ending, that day. I called anyone I had EVER heard talk about church or Jesus and I asked how can I be saved. Both people said join a church. So I went to work and asked the women at the register “how can I be saved? Does anyone know about Jesus?” They scattered, Sue pulled me aside and said you can’t talk about religion here Kim, go ask your priest. I said I don’t have one and wiped a tear away. It was URGENT. Georgia Neal.. a part timer came in, she always wore skirts so I assumed she was saved. I asked her and she said join my church, Come Sunday. I could hardly wait the three days! I thought I was gonna die that day. I got dressed in jeans and a sweater (no church clothes at all) and was one of the first people there. I tried to sit on the front row because I NEEDED to hear about Jesus. I was told that was the mother’s board row, after several reseatings I was near the back. That was fine. I sat in the row of that pew and all I heard was the Bishop running down big churches, not even one scripture. The choir was fine. At the the end when he opened the doors to the church Georgia motioned for me to get up, so I did. He prayed for us, they lead us out and I was asked if I wanted to sing in the choir. I declined and said I just wanna know who Jesus is.
The woman laughed and said, next time come early for Sunday school, so I did. I learned that Jesus was Jewish there. I learned that He died for me and with that I started reading the Bible at Genesis myself. After a few months I grew tired of this social club, I was frustrated because I wanted the Bible! Not his stupid stories about other churches. At work people had began to avoid me because I was talking about what I learned about the Bible and I didn’t even know there was a God! A woman invited me to lunch then she invited me to Bill Winston’s church that day. I said at the church I’m in now they say it’s a cult. She said, if you are uncomfortable just leave, it’s not a cult. I went. Omg.. Pastor Winston was TEACHING. No hooping and spitting! He went through about 12 scriptures with different translations! I had chills! It wasn’t a cult! People were drawn because it wasn’t church as usual. He was ACTUALLY teaching. I got baptized there. I came out of the water without the speech impediment that plagued me my whole life, the next day I was speaking in tongues.
Today.. I will lead a person to Christ no matter where we are. Then I ask them about tongues and if I’m lead I aid them in their new prayer language. I make myself available for any questions about the Bible or Jesus. I wasn’t given that, so I MUST give it. Listening to Kanye’s “God Is” brought ALL of this back. I’m so happy for him. What a joy it is to finally KNOW you’re saved and headed to heaven when you die.”
And there it is…. What is described in Revelations 12:11 –
Isaiah 53 – “1Who hath believed our report? and to whom is the arm of the LORD revealed?
2For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him.
3He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.
4Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.
5But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
6All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the LORD hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.
7He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he openeth not his mouth.
8He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare his generation? for he was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of my people was he stricken.
A Grave Assigned
9And he made his grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death; because he had done no violence, neither was anydeceit in his mouth.
10Yet it pleased the LORD to bruise him; he hath put him to grief: when thou shalt make his soul an offering for sin, he shall see his seed, he shall prolong his days, and the pleasure of the LORD shall prosper in his hand.
11He shall see of the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities.
12Therefore will I divide him a portionwith the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong; because he hath poured out his soul unto death: and he was numbered with the transgressors; and he bare the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.”